| so i've come to realize in these last few months that the real world really is hard. college first semester was easy breezy...but this next semester is gonna kick my ass. they only allow you to take 18 credits...and i've been approved to take 19. i know have a job that right now is having me work almost dail for anywhere between four and twelve hour days...it's fun...yes, it's victoria's secret...GET OVER IT! i like working there i just hope that i can be hired on after seasonal is over...that or find a job really quickly. right now i am just typing whatever comes to mind becuase i am beyond stressed, confused, exhausted, tired, and down right shitty feeling to be very honest with everyone. i hate that things can get so out of wack so quickly. things can finally be going great when something comes into the picture to knock every down, making both things just stressfull and almost unfulfilling. i hate that feelings can easily overwhelm you and you can be lost within yourself. am i too nice? people sure do say so. and why are there stereotypes? and why am i sometimes treated as one? i am normal...in every way as every one else...but in reality no one is normal. if we all were...we'd be uber boring. life would be pointless and when we'd date, it would be like loving yourself...EW! gah, i am so annoyed with the fact that when one person knows one thing about you and they know they can use it to their advantage, they do! why the HELL...do you have to be an ass?!!! i mean come on...maturity is a great feature to have people. GAH! i believe over this last summer i was shown how easily and quickly somethings can unravel and be lost...but also how truth and honesty can mend the wound. pain is all part of life. heart ache is also something we all have to experience once, if not more, times in our lives. things are DEFINITELY not easy! they always say that life has its challenges. but i believe that life is THE challenge. we must face all of our challenges head on and without fear no matter how scared we may be, how much pain we may suffere in the end, or if we get the good or bad end of the stick. nothing can be perfect and life is something that is far from that! sometimes i wish that things were...but then i always wonder why?...if things were perfect, we wouldnt have to work on anything...we'd all be like emotional robots...working just for the money, which we'd all make enough of, and going through life never really truelly experiencing anything. making mistakes and falling flat on our faces is what life is all about really. falling in love and giving everything you have into a relationship becuase you honestly feel perfect with the person is something all of us should do, even if our hearts get torn into a million pieces once or twice while searching for our one and only love that we can spend the rest of our lives together. therefore, nothing is easy in life. life is a roller coaster ride of experiences that involve every emotion there is in the book. nothing can be predicted which keeps us guessing, wondering what is going to happen next. the road may get rough at times but we have to keep moving forward and not worrying about what may have been in our pasts. some of us may have been beaten, suicidal, depressed, etc. in our pasts...but we were somehow able to make it through those hard times. another thing, friends are always there, through thick and thin. if you are a total idiot and they know that it just really isnt right...they'll tell you and get right in your face about it. tears are a good thing, dont be afraid to hold back. bottling up emotion is only going to hinder you....becuase one of these days there is going to be too much pressure and you are going to burst...something bad is bound to happen when going through life that way. and no worries, cause the ones that love you will be there right at your side telling you that it will be okay. fights are hard, but whenever something really bad happens, it always seems to bring people back together. of course having to deal with all the stress of life is crazy, but that is all part of why we were put on this earth. so i guess the whole meaning of this really meaningless blog is to say that life is an experience and we all need to make sure that we experience life! |
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| was perdy ausome... i'm glad i'm back! way overly tired! i'm going to bed! i feel really crappy...all dizzy and what not...idk why though i have to work tomorrow... and tomorrow is my 19th birthday...honestly not that excited! i'm really in a bad mood right now and feeling like puking....BLEH. i'm wondering when all this confusing will finally end and i'll be able to concentrate on one...not two! this is way too stressfull...i'm such an idiot and an ass...i dont wanna do this again! okay...i'm going to bed...I'M SOOOOOOOOOOOOOO DONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! g'night! |
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| yes it is... but what is? i got a job that's what it is... where you might ask? at freakin VICTORIA'S SECRET...OH YEAH! can you tell i'm way siked... cause i really am!!!!! have a happy day everyone...dont freeeeeeze brrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr TOODLES- CHRISTINA |
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| GUESS WHAT GUESS WHAT GUESS WHAT?!!!! YEAH...I SURVIVED THE FIRST WEEK OF COLLEGE AND NOW I'M HOME FOR THE LONG WEEKEND LOL...IDK WHEN I'LL GO BACK...I'M THINKIN MY ROOMIE WENT TO OREGON WITH A GROUP OF FRIENDS...CAUSE I CANT SEEM TO GET AHOLD OF HER! SO....LOTS AND LOTS OF READING...BUT IT'S NOT BAD! COLLEGE IS ALREADY AN AMAZING EXPERIENCE AND I LOVE IT SO MUCH ALREADY! GOLF WILL BE KICKING OFF QUICKLY SO I'LL BECOME UBER BUSY...YAY! IT'S AMAZING HOW MUCH FREE TIME YOU HAVE...THAT PROBABLY SHOULD BE FILLED WITH HOMEWORK LOL...BUT REALLY, IT'S AMAZERING! HOPE ALL IS GOING WELL WITH EVERYONE! LOVE,
CHRISTINA |
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